All right. So here I am again, not as much time on my hands, but I have enough to get by. Lately I've been working at Trump Tower with Fisk Electric as a pre-apprentice, prior to that, a Coach store with Integrated Contractors. Its been a little crazy, I'm really not settled anywhere and don't feel like I will be settled for a while. I feel like the snoglobe inside me has been shaken and just keeps spinning in a vortex of confusion and body organs. I'm really thinking about moving to Utah with Todd and Karalee, my mom said that that would be a good idea. She just wants me out of Vegas in general, which I can understand, its really crappy here. She really wants me to go to Indiana and live with Andy for free and just work on my education. I don't exactly want to do that so much, I don't think I'd be very strong in the church over there, seeing as I've been weakened over here by not even hanging out with LDS friends. So yeah, I feel like I could move down there and strive to live, but theres always that doubt, mostly failure and chance of irresponsibilty, that starts eating at me.. its a bunch of 'what if's' My job here right now is paying me more than I've recieved ever, and its not exactly hard work, its just laborous. I don't use my mind as much as my muscles and I'm sort of alright with that, but only sort of. I really want to have to use my head in situations, how to get to point B from point A while hitting C, D and E while also transversely intersecting point F. Or maybe, I'd like to think of how to cut a second off my lap time, or even 1/4 mile time. How to gain more power out of an engine, even if it is really little. But yeah, I really want to complete school more than a lot of other things right now. I'd like to have more fun, but I've been in this Work/Eat/Sleep mode lately and its been sort of stressing me out. If I change it, its mostly in sacrifice of sleep, that I may replace with fun. Theres not really a balance that I've found, and well, I haven't found any balance in my life, not really in my finances either. Sure I make every payment, and mostly everything is paid off, but the things that aren't paid off are pretty big things.. my car, and that damned $2000 creditcard and that 400 dollars I spent at Lowes, oh and my freakin $1k tires.... If I was more of an adult, I think I would have taken care of this long ago instead of having lots of fun toys and eating out.

I love my CRF-50 though.. I took it to the bank today to cash some rebates I had on my tires. Its a fun little fast toy, I think I could wreck faster on that than on my 250. Steering is really really touchy and the balance of it is a lot higher.. I want to go race it. I watched the races, and now I want go race. I don't think I would do very well though, but I didn' do well at my first 1/4 race either, its always the 2nd time when you show them whats up.

Ashley and Robert are well, still married.. Its kinda set in my head now, I don't see much of them, of course they're newly wed's and I didn't see much of Todd and Karalee when they first got married either... So I'll give them a couple months for them to get used to each other... Then hopefully they'll come and hang out... or maybe do things we said we'd do someday. I still want stars. Tyler Garber is so freakin cute, I love that girl.. She's one of those babies that I don't really feel uncomfortable around. I think Byron broke down my barrier for her. Thats crazy to think that Tyler is a part of Karalee and Todd. Wow. Missy's boy got back last week.. I haven't seen her for a long long time... I randomly ran into Vanessa Brown at Fashion Show while she was getting off of work. She told me some story about Missy and yeah... that was it... GEEZ, Vanessa has her kid as well, 11 month old.

I need to take a shower... I saw Accepted last night. That movie was freaking awesome and funny, not forgetting to mention that hot girls also appeared in it, plus I had popcorn and some cherry coke! I'd totally go see it again.